Today marks a milestone for me. I took the header photo today and really looked at myself. How different was I now to a year ago. Exactly one year ago, to the day, I was sitting on top of a mountain in the aftermath of my accident and uncertain about my future. I sat alone and fearing the worst. Below is a picture from that day. You can read more about it here (about me page) if you want to.
But today, sitting here now, writing about this a year on, is quite surreal for me. It was before my blog, before liv, before everything. It’s hard not to reflect on the significance and the undoubtable butterly effect that is still changing me now. I felt alone up there and I have never felt alone since that day. Yes there has been some dark moments but never did once feel truly alone. That’s the biggest chance I have seen in myself – my change in my mindset.
I have learnt to embrace the world for what it is and what it throws at me. You have to take the good with the bad. I realize that I needed to use every ounce of strength I had to learn what strength was. I have learnt that only one person has the ability to make your life better – you. Take the power away from everyone to control your ups and your downs and give it back to yourself. Trust yourself and you will never be alone. Only then can you surround yourself with happiness and love because you will see it and feel it. It’s true what people say….. love starts with you.
So here I am, a year on, happier with my life because of me. Yes I have liv and an amazing group of friends for they are incredible for their ongoing love and support. And I also have my blog and all of you with your kind words and your encouragements. And I have a family that I love. But behind all that, I have me. And I can appreciate it because I have learnt to love myself first.
So if you want to change the world, change your circumstances, or even just be happy – My advice is to start with yourself. Love the crap out of yourself first and you will never go far wrong. And let go. Let go of everything that doesn’t really matter.
So another Sunday and another day strolling with my fiancée. Today’s location was Rutland Water. It’s a beautiful reservoir that provides a scenic setting for the fairy-tale splendor of Normanton Church, a structure that appears to float on the lake when the reservoir is full. Normanton Church is the county of Rutland’s most famous landmark.
However this could have been erased like the rest of the area, but fortunately, we are lucky enough that it was saved. Yet it could all have turned out very differently. Due to the public outcry of 1970 that saved Normanton Church from destruction when plans to flood the area around it were being set in motion. When the demands of a growing population had to be met, consultation took place to decide on a suitable site for a much-needed new reservoir and the Gwash valley in Rutland was chosen.
The valley had to be cleared and so Normanton Church was deconsecrated and scheduled for demolition, but the general public felt this was unjust and had other ideas. They protested and were successful in their efforts. However, the war was not over. When it came time to flood the area, it became obvious that the church would be partially submerged once the high-water level was reached. This would mean the gradual erosion of its lower walls and foundations. So after discussions and plans, it was decided that the lower level of the church should be filled with rubble and topped with concrete to create a new floor. This would make it approximately 60cm above the water level. The church would become a small island once the reservoir was filled, and so a causeway was built connecting it to the nearby shore of the lake and an embankment was constructed around the building. A layer of boulders was then put in place as a defensive breakwater. There is something between the harshness of its rock defensives and the grandeur and elegance of a petite church that makes its uniqueness even more unusual. It’s truly a treasure to be discovered.
It’s incredibly picturesque and beautiful. When you walk around the church you can feel the love that have been united inside and the memories stain the walls. You can hear echoes of laughter and imagine the smiles that have graced the faces of all who set their eyes upon this special place. It’s definitely on our potential wedding venue list.
Liv was being a silly giraffe and taking picture of me. Here are some “action shots”…
Happy Sunday all,